SHOTS! and not the fun kind

So here it is. Day 6 of my Lupron shots. Sunday was my first shot and I felt kinda queasy the rest of the day. Then Monday came and I went to work. Now, I work a high stress desk job with responsibility that is way out of my pay grade, but I get it done and rock at my job. Not Monday. Monday, I could barely see straight. I was so nauseous and dizzy, then came the migraine. I was truly miserable. It was even worse than a hangover. There was no relief! But I wanted to stick it out and not call my doctor. So I called the nurse. I’m sure she looooves me by now. I am that stereotypical infertility patient who freaks out. So I get really self conscious about calling. But when I told her about my symptoms, she said she had never heard of anyone getting queasy on Lupron. Now, I am a Googler, and I knew from many websites that it can be a common side effect. But I decided not to call the doctor and see if the nausea went away.

I woke up on Tuesday morning after maybe 3 hours of sleep. And I was still fucking queasy. I never take days off for anything other than a doctor appt or my birthday. I only get 15 Sick/Vacation/Personal days a year. So yeah. But I had to do it. I couldn’t work I was so nauseous and dizzy. My husband stayed home with me, put cool rags on my head and stayed in bed with me all day. I did let him bring his PS3 in the bedroom and he sat in bed killing zombies and stroking my back while I slept. It was just what I needed.

I went back to work on Wednesday and started to feel better, then by the time I got home, I felt queasy again. Then Thursday came. I almost couldn’t stand straight or keep my eyes open, I was so dizzy and nauseous but this time I got the bonus prize of a RAGE INDUCING MIGRAINE. When I got off of work, my husband and I went straight to Target to pick up more of my everyday medications. And I almost knocked down a display. That was it. I paged my RE and he called me back minutes later. Now, he wasn’t condescending, but he said he had never had a patient call him with this symptom before. I had to restrain myself from telling him, “Well now you do!”. He suggested that I might have the flu and I’m like, no. But then he got in my head and I started to wonder, maybe I do. But what are the odds that I have no other symptoms other than the nausea that started hours after my first shot of Lupron? So he prescribed me something and I picked it up 20 minutes later. Within 30 minutes, I started to feel normal. It was great.

When I got home I was worried that I would still have insomnia from the Lupron so I took a Klonopin and went right to sleep. Yeah…….I overslept. Apparently the Klonopin and anti-nausea meds both have sedative effects. Here I sit at my desk now, not nauseous, but I can barely keep my eyes open I am so sleepy. But I will take this over the extreme migraine and nausea.

So, yeah. That was my week. I need this weekend to be a good one, because I cannot take any stress right now or be asked to make any decisions. I just want to veg out and not watch tv. Maybe just read or play board games with my hubby.

Only two people at my job know that I am going through IVF. One is a platonic male coworker in my office whom I don’t work directly with, but we somehow became best buddies. Everyone thinks we are sleeping together, if they only knew! And I also told one of my jr. recruiters. She is around my age but she has dreams outside of this place. She is a burlesque dancer. She just got back from a tour in Spain. I KNOW RIGHT?! But I needed to talk to a female about it and I trust her enough to share. She is super excited for me and told me that she has several friends who donated their eggs and went through the same thing so it is really cool that she is somewhat familiar with the process. She said that I will be SUPER OVULATING and she will be on the lookout for me to start clucking. And that was the exact ridiculous thing that I needed to make me truly laugh in days. It was awesome.

Okay, back to work I go. I have typed this into another document so it looks like I am writing up a report. Haha, if they only knew! Now to make sure I copy and paste this to my blog and not send the report to my director with this included!